Originally posted by clickclick I didn't take it this way at all, so no worries, at least not from my standpoint. Just was honestly a bit disappointed at the thought of you not keeping her. I get nostalgic, and my Dad's SV1 is within arm's reach. His Meyer Optik Orestegor 4/200 is mounted on my K-1 at this moment. I just can't let these things go.
Really sorry to hear of your injury too. I get this. I have 5 herniated discs, one torn disc, and the resultant bone spurs, spinal stenosis and arthritis all at work against me. Yes, it does give you something to fight for, daily. I refuse to give up. So far, hanging in there. Carrying things around is a true agony though. I grab my K3II for the daily walk with the dog for a lighter carry than my K-1. I'm in a constant search for better ways of distributing load too. I've been wondering about one of those vests for awhile now, even if I ended up looking like a goofball. Some would say I already do.
I have CRPS Type II, Type I is phantom limb syndrome and the nerve damage is at the amputated part, Type II is at the spinal cord where you perceive that the pain is coming from the legs and you have "normal" signals coming from the legs, so you have double the nerve signals that get all confused and are transmitted by healthy nerves, the spinal cord is like a co-axial TV aerial the outside controls feeling/ vibration/ temperature, the inside motor function, and the bone fragments penetrated into motor control and then with further prolapses went deeper. The strangest thing is the "short circuits" I prolapsed a disc when a mugger kicked me on the ground between the shoulder blades, so at random times I can my left leg in my left hand and arm, and in late April a leg spasm dislocated my left shoulder and ripped the surrounding tissue, my discharge notice describes me as being in "exquisite pain".
I had the stenosis operation 13 years ago, clearing out of the scar tissue and drilling around the holes where the nerve roots come out to free them up from coaching on anything. Unfortunately it lasted 3 weeks, and in the 24 years of pain, I can say that psychologically having no pain for 3 weeks and then the holes filling up with scar tissues was the most mentally punishing thing that ever happened, for 3 weeks (my daughter was born just before) and thinking I could have a normal life then the pain returning, that was nasty.
My experience of photo jackets is "you turn right, you turn left, you keep on rotating", but I can assure you that one looks nothing like the Peak Design video's for their camera clips with it dragging your belt towards your feet and exposing your underwear. I tried a backpack too, the trouble is getting the thing off, but wearing it "snug" because of momentum and my left arm got caught like a chicken wing and trying to free it with my right while holding a walking stick was a danger to passer's by. I like reminiscing about the old gear, especially the LX and I've tried "technology" to help me but I'm not medically permitted to fly and there's two jobs starting in Bangalore that I would have loved to finish, but I fell off a three foot wall, prolapsed another disc and that was the end of that, the Indians being helpful was tremendous after the fact, but being carried by a crowd shouting in Kannada through the streets like crowd surfing to a hospital through back alleys was terrifying, just wished they'd explained what they were doing.
I do like a 50mm, but my perception is more like 28mm and getting in closer, but the fundamental problem that carrying a heavy camera around my neck for five years globetrotting caused me to stoop and anything round my neck now lead to problems (I have also tried getting webbing, hitching it to my belt behind and looping it round the neck strap so the camera pulls the back of my trousers up but relieves pressure on the neck), that was one of the more successful experiments but doesn't solve the "being right handed and using a stick on my right problem" and when I take picture I move, left right, up down, is that a leading line? does that frame that person inside of that? Instinct and muscle memory takes over and that's what damages me. Optical viewfinders are great for composition as you are not focussing on open aperture so you can consider background detail and see if anyone's walking into the frame. I take photos "the old way", when I changed to a 28-70 f2.8 constant I found my quality of work dropped because I wasn't moving, and I recalled "the old days" where a photojournalist would move into position before selecting the lens with the appropriate field of view, so for me photography is a very fluid action which with limited mobility is problematic.
I do pity your five prolapses and find it remarkable you can function, writing this hurts me, as I perceive the pain. This can be understood be a normal person, we all have the ability to ignore our nervous system's output, you only feel your socks unless you think about it, I just have a lot of medication to assist the process and to suppress the natural reflex of producing too much adrenalin and cortisol. I am better off than most, at my level I should be bed ridden whereas I have a few hours a days, one of my main issues is that I look too normal most of the time, but diesel engines and vibration make me as white as a sheet and I get pregnant women on the Tube offering me their seats (earlier on this year on a trip to London to see a specialist), took 3 weeks to recover from a 1 1/2 travel.
This 500mm has inspired me to try again after last year's attempt that popped the ligament in my good hand, there are things I don't know, like "the golden hour", since a working photojournalist has to take pictures regardless of the time of day, also I'm not any good at photo manipulation as 50% in Photoshop doesn't correspond in the slightest to me adding 50% in a darkroom and burning in, however the range of digital cameras is incredible and sometimes undesirable, I was primarily mono, but a Fuji rep gave me a lot of Veliva and said that after that I'd know exposure like the back of my hand, he was right, and I have tried Velvia profiles and they are just wrong, the original film had 4~5 stops of detail that could be recorded so you'd choose to blow the highlights or lose the shadows and this could be very desirable, recently I saw a scene that would have looked great with blown highlights and a figure in silhouette, and not matter what I do with the image it's got too much detail and if I increase the contrast or move the levels to cut the highlights, the final histogram looks all jaggy rather than a smooth set of curves. But we live and learn, I found the original OM range vastly overrated compared to Pentax; talking about the OM-1's through to OM-4 as used by Jane Bown (I met her, she really did carry bodies around in plastic shopping bags), and Bob Carlos Clarke (I believe he used a 6x7 on occasion before his suicide) and the Pentax range has some very interesting small primes, so if I can get a little more mobile, the 77mm f1.8 looks like my kind of thing as long as I can work out how to turn off the technology.
Happy snapping everyone.