Eh, it happens. Actually, it's not been a great year for my interest in the surface of things, either,
I'm trying to take the time to loosen up on the technical stuff I usually consider to be part of 'peak experience,' cause, maybe it's not.
Sometimes later when the funk's off, you'll wish you'd fired the shutter more, or been able to, but you never know. 'Fallow period's' also another way of saying, 'This seems to be trying to convince poop-producing beasts of burden to dig troughs in a high percentage of more poop.'
If you want us to tell you to make photos anyway, make photos anyway. Hec, even if you want us to give you a reason to walk away for a while, make photos anyway. If you really don't want to, you won't need the telling of it.
You don't even have to look at them, especially these days.
Honestly, that's what I'm telling myself just lately, too, with limited success, it's just that I know I've been here before.
Things seem to suck, nothing looks meaningful, I don't even want to *be* here, the *engagement with people I consider so essential to what I think I'm doing* is *so* strained and fragile, cameras seem uncomfortable for *everyone,* like this is an undignified time everyone hopes will end, (isn't it?) And even if staying too long in the South *always* seems to just *mess* with my estimation of humanity after a while, I'm scared, stressed-out, don't want to even rock the *boat* with the usual people you meet by pointing cameras, and it's probably actually the *wrong* time for me: I look around and mostly all I see is people who already feel put-upon by seemingly-endless electronic intrusion, and tend to focus that discomfort on the 'obvious' camera,
You know, I dunno. All I know in some ways is that it's a depressing time, and later I'll wish I'd gotten on the shutter more often, even if I'm not feeling it now.
So, whatever.
I know *I* get shy, people-averse, when I'm not feeling well. That's probably why it feels good when I'm on what I call my game. But, maybe it just doesn't right now. I can see it in people's faces when I review what I *have* got.
Easy to sit here and type, 'So get *that,*' but, I'll tell you man, sometimes I just don't *want* to. So.