Bigdave......Been there done that...it was a long time ago, and it was a living nightmare. Did it get better? Damn right it did, and I am glad I hung in there when it looked hopeless.
I could say that I pulled myself up all on my own....by my bootstraps...but that would not be totally honest.
I could say that others pulled me up and saved me....but that would not be totally honest.
I could say that I never gave in to defeat and never quit trying....that would be totally honest.
Hang in there, the sun will shine on you again and your hide will be tougher for it. Your appreciation of your own abilities and resolve will be a source of never ending strength for the next round of adversity.......yes, there is always a "next round", unfortunately.
Best Regards!