Hi,
So I was going to create a new thread, for what I am about to write.
Mind you, I read each and every line of what you wrote - I partly relate - However I partly don't relate. I am strange enough "Over Confident" that things will be fine in the end. I think what is the worst that could happen? Absolutely nothing! Life is worst as I take and and best as I take it. I am in the middle of crap - listening to music, breathing can provide for myself and my wife.
So anyways about the new thread that I was about to create - So bro being from the IT background myself, failing my CCNA and failing my CISSP in 2010. I now have given up on the freaking certifications. My wife kept the freaking CISSP book right in front of me to remind it and I just threw it behind the cupboard.
The post - I was listening to a Photography lecture, the trainer introduced this photo as one of the powerful photos:
I did more research as who this person is and came across this war veteran James Blake Miller part of US Marine.
Here is the associated video I found after doing a brief google search.
The Marlboro Marine - latimes.com
So I realized the amount of things that this person went through. I felt man this guy needs courage every single moment. Much more than what we see in a normal course of life. So I came to the forum to post it and then I see your post. Almost related.
So bro everyone's life is not a cake walk. Yes some people have better chances of meeting with success but then so what? Happiness and success is a state of mind and both can be achieved by you.
I just completed Executive MBA and I could not believe I could ever do it. After doing a FREAKING tech support job for 8 years. Although promoted and being best. It was really a load of crap. It has been 11 years since my first break through is completing my MBA.
So yes you can make it and continue everything you think is good for you, specially in the field of education. It is the best investment a man can make in life.
HTH.