war memoirs:
Years Off My Life: The Memoirs of General of the Soviet Army A.V. Gorbatov
went through three wars - the First World War, the Civil War (1917-20) and the Second World War, some time immediately after the war was the commandant of Berlin.
shortly before World War II, he was arrested by the Stalinist secret police (NKVD) on absurd charges ... he completely passed the so-called "interrogation with partiality", but did not break down and did not sign the nonsense conveyed to him by the investigator... then a so-called "trial" took place, a sentence was passed - 15 forced labor camps... but after about 3 years his "case" was re-examined, he was released and reinstated in the army ... these memories differ from many similar memories of the war...
I will not describe the battle scenes. Here are some excerpts from the book:
“At two o'clock in the morning there was a knock on the door of my room in hotel. To my question:“ Who? ”A woman's voice answered:
“A telegram for you.
"Obviously from my wife," I thought, opening the door. Right off the bat he announced to me that I was arrested. I demanded an arrest warrant, but I heard in response:
- You can see who we are!
After such an answer, he began to remove the medals from my tunic lying on the chair, another to cut off the insignia from the uniform, and the third, without taking his eyes off, watched how I was dressing. Under escort, I left the hotel. I was pushed into a passenger car. We drove in silence. It is difficult to convey what I experienced when a car was rushing me through the deserted night streets of Moscow...
There were five 'interrogations with partiality', with an interval of two or three days; sometimes I went back to the cell on a stretcher. Then for twenty days I was allowed to catch my breath ... Soon they began to summon me again for interrogation, and there were also five of them. During one of them, I accidentally found out that the name of my monster-investigator is Stolbunsky. I don't know where he is now. If he is alive, then I would like him to be able to read these lines and feel my contempt for him. I think, however, that he knew it well then ... To this day, Stolbunsky ominous hissing voice sounds in my ears, which repeats, when they carried me away, exhausted and bloody: "Sign the confession!"
I endured this torture in the second round of interrogations. For twenty days I was no longer interrogated. I was satisfied with my behavior.
But when the third series of interrogations began, how I wanted to die as soon as possible!
I will die, but I will repeat everything: "no and no! "
The trial lasted four to five minute. My last name, first name, patronymic, year and place of birth have been confirmed.
Then the chairman asked:
- Why didn't you confess to your crimes?
“I didn’t commit a crime, so I had nothing to confess,” I replied.
- Why are ten people pointed at you, already confessed and convicted? The chairman asked.
I was in such a good mood at that moment, and I was so sure that I would be released that I dared to take liberty, which I later bitterly regretted.
I said:
- I read the book "Workers of the Sea" by Victor Hugo. It says: once in the sixteenth century in the British Isles, eleven people were captured, suspected of having ties with the devil. Ten of them admitted their guilt, though not without the help of torture, and the eleventh did not confess. Then King James II ordered this poor fellow to be boiled alive in a cauldron: "The fat will prove that this one was also associated with the devil." Apparently, - I continued, - ten comrades who confessed and pointed at me experienced the same as those ten Englishmen, but did not want to experience what was destined for the eleventh.
The judges smiled and looked at each other. The chairman asked his colleagues: "How is everything clear?" They nodded their heads. I was taken out into the corridor. Two minutes passed.
I was again led into the hall and the verdict was announced: fifteen years in prison and a camp, plus five years of disqualification...
...I knew that there were many people who refused to sign the false statements, as I refused. But few of them were able to survive the beatings and torture - almost all of them died in prison or prison infirmary. Good health saved me from this fate, I passed all the tests. Obviously, the harsh conditions of my childhood and adolescence, and then long combat experience, hardened my nerves: they withstood the brutal efforts to break them.
People, mentally (but not morally) broken by torture, were mostly worthy people, deserving respect, but their nervous organization was fragile, their body and will were not tempered by life, and they gave up. You can't blame them for this ... "
the author interestingly depicts how he overcame a feeling of fear in his youth:
"One late autumn I left the village in the morning, it was still dark, and I was in a great hurry to be in the shop by eight o'clock. Not far from the city stretched a large Kochnevsky forest, about which all kinds of fears were always told. This forest lay in a lowland, and even in summer the road, which did not dry out, became almost impassable in autumn. Usually everyone walked through the forest by paths beaten away from the road. I, too, chose this path and suddenly saw a poorly dressed man hanging from a branch, with a face distorted in torment. It scared me so much that I started to run.
I had a really great feeling of fear only once, when I was a child, when I was looking for a fern flower at night. (Childhood fear of father's fists does not count.) But this feeling has long since disappeared, leaving no trace. But after this hanged suicide, I could not get rid of fear and even during the day I avoided walking in the woods. This upset me very much: after all, at that time I was already eighteen. "No," I thought, "something needs to be done to prevent this from happening, otherwise I will become a complete coward.
And I decided to do what the other boys probably did more than once, out of bragging: I decided to go to the cemetery at night. For me it was not mischief, but treatment. To begin with, I chose a cemetery next to the city garden; the voices and laughter of the walking people reached there, and this was very encouraging. Still, at first I did not go far, I went around only the nearest graves; then he began to walk further, to the middle of the cemetery, and, finally, to the most distant wall. The nasty feeling of dread was still great but I didn’t give up my plans, but after a while I began to notice that the fear became less painful. At night, to check, I went to a distant cemetery. Not a single live sound broke the silence that reigned there. I forced myself to come there at midnight - at the most "dead" hour according to legend, - and again some inexplicable fear gripped me. However, when I finally reached the farthest wall, I was relieved to feel that conquered fear.
Now I also walked through the Kochnevsky forest fearlessly at night, and during the day I looked for that unfortunate tree on which a man had once hung, and, proud of his victory over himself, stood under this tree.
Subsequently, already serving in the army, I often recalled my "training" and, observing myself at the front, noted with satisfaction that fear no longer possessed me..."
he also wrote in the book about his feelings, first love: "Once a short girl came into our store, very pretty and shy. She chose her shoes, quietly said "goodbye" and left ... Since then, I really wanted to see her, at least from afar... Four months have passed since our acquaintance. Every Sunday I met her in the city garden, but she was always in the company of her friends, we greeted from afar, but I did not dare to approach. The next Sunday I met Olga alone, quickly approached her, we walked together, sat on a bench for three hours and ... did not say a word. They parted, happy and sad... "
I'll add a link: "
"General Alexander Gorbatov dies; Leader in war After His Purge" - The New York Times. 12 December 1973. Retrieved 15 September 2017."
Last edited by Martin Stu; 09-28-2021 at 01:52 AM.