Ok... I have pondered this for a long time....
I now think....
1. My start point was a lost teenager..... mostly deadish inside...
2. finished high school..... wagged 50% or so of my last year... but passed
3. did nothing for 3 years after.... well just not so good stuff.
Anyway.... started to get my act together when I was 20. Had to start as an apprentice electrician.... missed the boat on a proper start.
4. Generally.... for the next 28 years.... I wanted to just be left alone.
5. To be left alone.... I just got the things done... so I'd be left alone again.
6. People in business.... just want things done. Turned out I was popular. I played along.
7. Ended up as an Exec in a large national company..... go figure.... about 6 different "careers" along the way.
8. In the end.... I decided I really really wanted to be left alone.... so retired at 48 (11 years ago)... more than enough money for many years of retirement. Walked away from $300k pa.
9. Now I just like "feeling"..... not so much analytical thought.
10. Generally now... I'm not even sure if using a fast frame rate camera doesn't put pressure on birds to do stuff. I'm too relaxed for therapy.
Note... I learnt along the way that when I focus and apply myself I could learn almost anything.... and separate myself from my ego in a manner that allows me to understand others. I think being a loner when young, fat and not popular led to a low sense of self worth and little ego. This served me well in my working years. It's like I'm on the outside looking in.... I can sorta see how things are going to be.
In the last 10 years or so of my career I had a number of unbelievable experiences..... other than my wife.... no one in my life would know.... but in the end I just wanted a quiet life.
Me leaving the corporate world behind and going walkabout. A selfie I did for the single in challenge many years ago.... that really is me.