To all of you who have responded with your kind words, advice, sympathy and empathy.
I say Thank you very much, i didn't expect so many replies so soon and it gives me a good feeling that we can care over such long distances and different situations, it warms my heart
My Boys will be the centre of my plans, I am looking for somewhere close by so I may have shared custody, hopefully they will not suffer as I will see them often.
I am, in a way looking forward to "finding myself" again, spending the time I have reflecting on things, without complicating it with another relationship. When it is time it will show itself, I believe. (as long as that time isn't too soon LOL)
I send a special reply to pasipasi and can understand how you feel. And truly believe things get better with time, and if you also need to vent or share how you feel you may also PM me.
Again I am thanking each of you individually as I write here, and hope something good will happen to you all very soon for your gestures of friendship.
Taff