Hello fellow shutterbugs.
I keep running into this and never asked a fellow experienced photographers for advice. I am only a yearling in photography but have great aspirations. I have no one enthusiastic or a photographer to go shooting with and find myself alone most times. I am 36 years old female of average build.
Scenario 1: I often have grand plans to go out for sunrise/sunset session for wildlife or landscapes or star trail photos at night, into local parks/cemeteries or even a bit remote locations I plan to fly to in a future. I often end up not going because I am not a morning person, so I fall back asleep, but huge part of it is because I actually feel scared of the idea of being outdoors between 4-7am or at night alone somewhere remote. I know attacks by weird people would be more true for local parks near towns, but I also just cannot imagine hiking up a remote nature trail at 4,5am alone either. Meeting a bear would be awesome too, but I would poo my pants. I was recently in Zion and imagined something epic I could do but my partner refused to get up early with me and hike for hours just to see sunrise from the top...I ended up doing nothing again. Same goes for night star trails, he was being lazy and I really did not want to go alone. I missed out on at least 2-3 concepts.
Scenario 2: Even in regular daytime hours, when I find myself in local park trail that goes for hours, I get twitchy and keep looking over my shoulder.
This really impedes my efforts as I am by nature an explorer and hope to track some animals and I know i am never giving up this pursuit of nature and photography. But often I just stick to the trail not finding any animals, because they probably hang out somewhere more remote. And this is during the day in a public place! I usually avoid eye contact pretending to be confident photographer with heavy stride, and hide my camera whenever I can, but usually it has to hang on my neck ready to be used.
I am planning on making a distant trips to the national parks or other states which i would have to fly to, fund myself, and I find it very disruptive that i would put up so much effort, but then waste money and time, just to sleep in, miss out opportunities because I was scared.
What can I do to:
1. be less paranoid about darkness and odd times
2. be less paranoid about people potentially stealing my gear at gunpoint
3. protect my gear in case I encounter someone hostile who wants my gear or chases me
4. protect myself
5. make it appear less conspicuous that i have gear
Thank you for any and all tips from both male and female wildlife photogs.