There must be something wrong with me. I try and try, and try some more, and I continue to fail. I'm trying to elevate photography from a hobby to "something more". Not a career, exactly, I'd just like to be able to sell some picture eventually. But it seems like I'm not progressing.
First I tried to blame the weather. I got my first DSLR in the dead of winter, and there haven't been many shooting opportunities so far (or so I tell myself). Everything's been white, it's been freezing cold and windy, and when it's not snowing, it's raining.
But that seems like a lame excuse to me. There are plenty of photographers out there who are capturing gorgeous images in the dead of winter.
So then I tried to blame my lack of lenses. I figured the kit lens must be restricting me somehow. I sunk a
vast amount of money into a DA* 50-135mm, then
bought an older gentleman's Spotmatic kit for the Super Takumar 50mm F1.4 he had in it. I also added an F 35-70mm to the mix, and invested in a decent tripod.
But despite the vastly improved focal range and slightly better image quality, I still wasn't capturing the images I want. Apparently, blaming the kit lens was pretty lame too. Especially considering some of the images
other people have been able to take with the kit lens.
I was left with nothing to blame but myself. Despite everything I've learned on this forum and in books, maybe I still didn't have enough knowledge to take the pictures I want. So I tried my hand at the
Photo Critique section of this forum. I started by reading what the regulars there had to say about other people's submissions. Then I was better able to spot areas of submitted pictures that could've been improved. I felt like I was learning a lot this way, and even submitted a couple of pictures myself for critiquing. Then I went out and tried to apply what I'd learned.
Nope, I still suck. I can see the blatant problems with all of the above pictures, but for some reason, I couldn't spot those issues while I was shooting them. Either I need more time to develop better instincts, or photography isn't for me.
Today I tried for hours to get a specific shot of my bike that I've been dreaming up since yesterday. I had it all planned out in my head, and I was looking forward to finally getting that perfect shot I've been after for the last few days. But no matter what I did, things kept going wrong. Either the background would look like crap, or something would intrude in the picture, or the angle was wrong, etc, etc, etc.
(those are just some of the many, many failed attempts)
So far, my adventure into this hobby has been a bitter disappointment. I caught on to the technical stuff real quick (exposure, contrast, depth of field, post processing, etc), but the artistic aspect of it seems to be eluding me. I plan to continue working at it, but if things don't improve at some point, maybe I'll consider hanging up this heavy camera backpack. It'll make biking a whole lot easier.
P.S. I'm not looking for critique on the above pictures, I already know exactly why each one sucks. I'm just expressing my frustration at the inability to improve my photography technique.