They say the first stages to recovery and resolving problems is acknowledgement and admission.
So, this past weekend, I grabbed the bulk film loader, which had been sitting idle way to long in the closet, and winded off a roll of B&W (Arista EDU 200) I had purchased some time back.
My mission was to test an LX I popped off eBay for not too much money. Well used, but seemingly functional. I needed to test it.
The subject was my poor dog. She's a good sport and didn't seem to mind the sudden modeling requirement, but this is when I realized I had a problem. I took a picture, and I dropped the camera down to look at the preview on the back LCD panel.... Did I REALLY just do that? Wow. I've been shooting too much digital! I've got a problem!
So, my recovery plan is currently in progress. I've got a cart open at Freestyle, and I'm getting up to date chemicals, some more film, paper etc. I know it's going to be a slow process to recovery, and I know I'm addicted to digital for a lot of reasons, but must have film back in my life. Then I think I'll be whole again, and on my way to recovery.
So, any suggestions of favorite B&W films/papers in today's world? I gravitate to my old stand-bys - D76, Dektol etc. Quite a range on price from the Arista to the Tmax 400 - no idea how Foma, Kentmere stack up - see we have some Ilford still and Rollie is in the game - where's the Plus X?.... Long for the days when I could shoot B&W or E6 slide for pennies a roll, or so it seemed.
Anyway, wish me luck. Recovery is never an easy proposition, but I think I'm in the right place. And oh, yes, the roll I shot this past weekend developed just fine (D76 1:1), and I'll hopefully have some in focus shots to print out this upcoming weekend.